Imagine :
the sound of the water like the thunder that wakes up all of your fears, the wind created by the water flow like a storm trying to flush you away from yourself, the cold of the waterdrops flying around and washing all of your sins, the vibration and the movement of this gigantic wall of water while you're fighting to stay still...
When I stepped on the edge of this waterfall It literally took my breath away. I felt like in the middle of a storm, watching myself being pushed, attacked, slapped in the face, yelled at, by something that was just fast water flowing away. My breath got shortened as I was breathing faster. All of my sense were intensively shaken. I felt so overaroused that I had to alternate between retreating myself behind the wall for a few seconds and standing out there again.
Suddenly I was this little dot that something way stronger than me was trying to take down the river. But by standing on the edge, I was showing up for myself. I was taking my power back out of it. I felt like a little warrior, fighting to stay still, Trying to calm down so I could enjoy the show. Repeating myself "this is OK. This is beautiful. This is nature's power."
I don't think I'll ever be able to describe better life for an hip than through that little story. This experience where all of my senses were aroused, this loud noise, the sensation of the water drops on my skin, the pressure on my chest, the feeling of fighting to stand still in front of this overwhelming nature... this is exactly what happens in the body and brain of an highly sensitive person...
In our everyday life, everything is stimuli, wether on the physical aspect, the social aspect or the emotional aspect. Our nervous system reacts intensely to the world, resulting in highly physical or emotional reactions... Wether it's in the positive aspect of it, or the negative one. And the problem is that, most of us (and me too) haven't been taught how to accept and surf those waves but instead, we get submerged by them or we learned how to hide all of them. This is why very often, when standing in front of life's waterfalls, us, HSP, are losing our footing... We scream, we cry, we laugh, we shiver, we are breathless, we react... It's beautiful, it's intense but it hurts us too.
And then, one day, through my reading I discovered there were tools, of those that reconcile us with ourselves and transform our highly sensitive trait into a superpower. And that's when I realised that my experience of the waterfall was nothing more than a metaphor for my life as an HSP... If I want to be able to stand there, on that rock, in the middle of the emotional uproar, I'm going to have to relearn how to breathe through the storm in order to face these cascades of emotions that always seem too big, too strong, and let the little warrior in me do her great work as a highly sensitive but very much alive person to really start enjoying the show that life has to offer me...
Stay tuned.
Love.
Co.
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